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Remembering Phineas on his adoption day

Phineas came into our home on this day, 5 years ago.  Here is a video of him, my finger & some preening:

 

Missing you, our little man.

Always in our thoughts.

♥♥♥

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Remembering Phineas: One year on

One year ago today, our wonderful Phineas made his way to rainbow bridge.

It is hard to believe that a whole year has passed.  There have been many changes since his passing but his home, the Silver Villa, is very much the same.  I can still visualise him sitting at each seed pot, chewing the iodine block & sitting on the perch in the doorway.  His pink swing is still in use, though not as a bedtime position as he used it.

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Always in our thoughts.

Love you my lovely boy.

(I still hope you can forgive me).

xxx

 

Remembering Phineas: The unanswered question

This post is a slight departure from my usual posts.

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I have an overriding question, that I have been unable to get a firm or satisfactory answer to, & that is, “Did Phineas get adequate care during his overnight stay at the veterinary hospital?

Why can I not get an answer?  It is my word against the hospital’s.  All I need to know is what actually happened whilst Phineas was waiting for his delayed operation.  Was he eating?  Did he eat enough?  Was he stressed or did he settle down?  Was he being attended to?  Did anybody care?

Phineas went from being absolutely doted on & adored, to effectively being abandoned (by me) for 24 hours, whilst he stayed overnight at the veterinary hospital because the priority of his operation was downgraded, hence it being put off until the following day.  Personally, I will always regret not bringing him home as soon as I heard of the delay.  I understand that things were not clear cut (i.e., initially being told the operation would be the next morning, not the next afternoon) & that I was advised it would be disruptive to bring him home & then back again, particularly as he had (allegedly) settled.  Hindsight is a wonderful thing.

Had I really thought about it…… how could Phinny have been remotely ‘settled’ in a strange place away from all that he knew & loved?

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If anyone reading this is in (or will be in) a similar situation where their bird needs to be kept overnight, I urge you to do all you can to make sure you feel confident your bird is genuinely comfortable.  Do not just accept the words of a member of staff who is a stranger to the bird but question them until you are satisfied.

If any veterinarians or veterinarian staff are reading this, I would like to state, obvious though it seems, that birds require care and a skill set that is quite different from non-exotic pets, & the owner’s knowledge of their bird could help you greatly in administering the best care.

In memory of my beautiful friend, Phineas.  I am so sorry… I will always regret not bringing you home that evening.

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2016 Review – A year of changes

Compared to other years, 2016 saw many changes in the flock.

The year began with just Bezukhov & Phineas, having lost Cagney a few months before.  Bezukhov & Phineas were unlikely friends, given their history; Phineas originally disliked Bezukhov because he was jealous he was Cagney’s buddy.  Probably due to Bezukhov’s patience & tolerance, he & Phineas gradually developed a good friendship.

In March, they were joined by Dalai.  We now had three very different personalities in the flock: Bezukhov the easy-going one, Phineas the ‘full-on’ one & Dalai the independent one.  They all found their own place in the flock & things were ticking over nicely.  Then we lost Phineas.

Bezukhov & Dalai struck up a friendship that I think had its grounds in both thinking Phineas was a little bit annoying.  With Phineas gone, they both gradually settled into a comfortable routine which I then upset by introducing two new & young blue birds to the flock.  At the time of writing, flock dynamics are still being sorted out.

So, we start 2017 in a very different place to when we started 2016.   We look forward to all the new (hopefully happy) happenings & challenges ahead of us, but will still occasionally stop & remember the memorable moments & marvellous characters that have brought us to this point.

Happy New Year.

 

 

Remembering Phineas at Christmas

This time last year, I posted about our first Christmas without Cagney.  This year, we face Christmas without Phineas.

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In the photo above, the perch he is sitting on is still in the same place in the Villa, in the front doorway.  In fact all is how he left it, so I can easily picture him in all perching spots.  This particular spot reminds me of a specific occasion last summer.

I was out all day & came home after their bedtime.  Bezukhov, Phineas & Dalai were in bedtime positions in the Villa, but because my sitter was still there they were not locked up & their front door was still open.  When Phineas saw me, he sleepily got off his swing & made his way to that perch.  I approached & held my hand out to him.  He regurgitated to my finger.  It was only a quiet, brief session as he was tired, but it made me feel so loved, missed & needed.  That little action by my beautiful little grey man seemed to say, “Where have you been today?  I have missed you.  Here’s some regurgitated seed I have been saving for you.  Glad you are back home.  I’m going back to bed now I have seen you.

So, this Christmas (& every day in fact) I am thinking of Phineas.  I am also thinking of Cagney & hoping they are having fun together over by rainbow bridge with Atilla, Raspy & Thomas.

 

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Tumbleweeds in the Villa

When we lost Phineas, Bezukhov made it clear he considered the Silver Villa Phinny’s domain.  Though Bezukhov & Phineas originally moved into the Villa at the same time, its location was/is the same as the Ferplast, which was definitely Phinny’s home.  If you recall, when Phineas arrived, Cagney & Bezukhov did not want him to sleep overnight with them so Phineas had a cage all to himself, at least at bedtime.  So it seems that by location, Bezukhov regarded the Villa as Phinny’s.

Bezukhov found it difficult to go in the Villa without Phinny’s presence.  He quickly decided that bedtime would switch back to the Manor.  Dalai followed him there.

During the day, he avoided the inside of the Villa.  On top & around the outside of it was fine, but he was not comfortable going inside.  It took a couple of weeks for him to venture inside to drink the water or chew the iodine block but he generally just took what he needed & then got out – he did not linger.  Gradually, as Dalai spent time in the Villa, Bezukhov’s visits got longer & over the following weeks Bezukhov began to sit in the Villa & even eat in there.  He now appears quite relaxed in there, but bedtime is still in the Manor.

 

Note: Check out the difference in feet colour between Bezukhov & Dalai.

 

 

Remembering Phineas: Preparing his new home

Phineas was cremated & his remains were returned on the 16th September.

As with those before him (Raspy, Atilla, Thomas & Cagney), I am making a new home for him in the form of a pillow.  The inner pillow has been completed.  I liked the material with clouds that I used for Cagney’s pillow so I have used the same for Phineas, & added my customary wonky embroidery.  Just before I closed up the opening, I slipped in a little paper heart saying “Thank you my beautiful boy xxx“.

His remains now sit with the others, in particular next to Cagney.

 

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Remembering Phineas on his adoption day

Phineas came into our home on this day, 4 years ago.  

I would like to share a video with you of him regurgitating to my thumb.  It was also during his brief quick, side-step phase.  Some people go, “Urgh”, at the thought of regurgitated food, but I always appreciated what he offered me, & I always thanked him.

Missing you, our little man.

Always in our thoughts.

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Autumn Banner 2016

We have won the banner competition on the budgerigars forum.  It is a bittersweet victory; we are very pleased & proud to have won, yet sad that we lost Phineas in the time between submitting the banner & winning the competition.

There is a competition each season to select a new banner, with the winner voted for by the members.  The theme was Autumn.  In the northern hemisphere, Autumn usually means back to school, so I used this idea & came up with the following:

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The budgie stars are (L to R): Bezukhov, Cagney, Phineas & Feathered Fiends’ Monty.

It can be seen in situ here: http://budgerigarsforum.proboards.com/ for the next few months.  Do take a look & have a browse around the friendly & informative forum. 🙂

 

 

The last weeks and days in the life of Phineas (3 of 3)

So Phineas was due to have surgery in the afternoon of the 6th September.  I had left him at the hospital at around 14:30.  At half past five, I still had not heard anything, so I rang the vets.  I was told he had not had the surgery yet.  It was possible it would not be done until the following day.

In a later phone call they suggested that he stay overnight at the hospital (free of charge) to minimise stress & he would be seen in the morning.  I asked if I could visit him that evening but they said all their visiting rooms were booked.  Because I could not see him, I rang several times to check he was okay.  Each time, I was told he was settled & that he was ‘absolutely fine’.  I cannot say that *I* was feeling ‘absolutely fine’.  I was in bits.

Last photo of Phineas

Last photo of Phineas

The next morning, I was told he was ‘bright & happy’.  I cannot say that even this comforted me as it did not sound like Phineas.  I appreciate that strangers will not know him as I do, but *I* would have felt ‘bright & happy’ had they told me he was ‘grumpy & sulky’ – a far more normal description, particularly under the circumstances.  They also told me that he would be seen at 1pm the earliest.  So, another long wait…

I will not log the details of what happened next as they are still too upsetting for me to share.  In short, during the surgery, Phineas went into cardiac arrest & they could not revive him.

It was several days before I could even discuss the surgery with the vet.  It turned out to be very complicated.  She was confident that Phineas had an aggressive cancerous growth that in turn had caused a hernia.  It was not a relatively simple case of ‘removal of mass’ (as expected), because his abdominal contents had spilled out & were entwined in the growth.  How my poor boy even functioned was a mystery.  It is likely that had he survived the surgery, he would not have had long afterwards.

Right now, I find no comfort in anything.  All I know is that he was in good spirits when I left him.  I wish *I* had not left him.  And I dearly wish he was still here.  I know from experience that time will gradually heal these feelings…. but in the meantime, I am desperately sad & missing my wonderful little friend.

 

 

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